Who am I, By Jason Mraz

I am not my face. I am not my hair.
I am not my family. I am not my care.

I am not my upbringing. I am not my mole.
I am not my receding gum. I am not my cold.

I am not my money. And I’m not my fame.
I’m not my hat. I’m not even my name. 

I’m just an idea that happened upon love. 
I am that I am and that I am is enough.

Jason Mraz, inspiring as always.

on another note, my conversation with another Jason went rather well today.

feeling hopeful, 
sabrina.

no more disney dream, i think we're all so tired of waiting. there was an actual moment of silence just now. i should say the teachers are really doing their best for us; using all their connections and all. i'm sure they're pretty worried for us too, cause no internship = no graduation! D:

we've / i've been really hopeful; even with all the dreadful news of issues with disney and the US, so i hope this next opportunity goes through. really nervous of it failing to work for us again.

anyway, i miss my friends, let's meet up please!

sabrina.

if it (not gonna say it, it's too jinxed) really happens, i hope it happens for a reason, i really hope that everything will turn out fine.. right now i just hope things take a turn for the better. waiting like this, is almost excruciating. i feel like we're being balanced by some zero gravitational force; and we don't know how long this force will keep us up, and then one day it's going to let go of our weights and we're just going to have a great fall.

still hoping for the better, a little.
sabrina. 

been feeling kinda down tonight; i don't know if it's the mood swings or something. the more i think, the more emotions i feel; anger; sadness; self-pity; envy; etc. (like the seven deadly sins or something haha). or maybe it's just the energy in the house. really starting to loathe being; feeling, so restricted.

after what happened, made a mental note to self: it's never good to get too attached to your material things. really does spark a series of emotions into your head. like my favourite tutor once said, 'Love the people, not your things'.

i had so many thoughts running through my mind tonight, but i really don't know what to type anymore. this is a public blog after all.

the exams are drawing near, goodnight my friends.

sabrina.

p.s. so being in the present mind is really difficult to do after all.

so other than some really annoying yet expected internal conflict concerning me and someone i hate to anger, the past couple of days have been great hanging out and catching up with some of my favourite poly-mates; the bimbszxz (in full force!), some kite flying and bonding session with the classmates, and a short but fruitful meet up with ahleongliling, ivanlimdianwen and jelly-miahdu! it's already the 5th now, to think i actually jotted down on my calendar to start studying from the 1st of August! 

can't believe how fast time flies, feels like it was just yesterday when i stepped into poly; and visited TP with sohweilun before orientation (not that we're kiasu, just that we didn't want to lose our way on our actual first day of school) HAHA. and the first time i met my favourite bimbs at TCC! one whole year together with 1H09; and then SSM with 2H07 (i think i've blogged enough about this LOL); and then our semester at Sentosa gaining weight with Culi Science; and now we're here! ready to work and graduate within 6 months' time.

i'm so glad to have met so many wonderful people these three years in poly (wow i sound like i've already graduated LOL), and i hope we'll still meet up when we grow older and start to have wrinkles! :D eggcitingggg.

i guess i'm having more of such thoughts these days cause i know how close it is to leaving for Disney. i actually feel really nervous yet really excited at the same time. the world is a scary place after all, like jerome said, i can't wait to see how the experience at Disney unrevels itself!

enjoying life,
sabrina.

Hello!

Been rather busy going out lately, which is why I am now close to being broke! This coming week's gonna be worse I reckon, what with all the birthdays going on! Money matters aside, these breaks are just what I need after the last few hectic months of project deadlines; but now I'm in such a holiday mood that I'm forgetting about one last presentation and then the exams are coming up soon! I foresee that the house is going to be too noisy to study during the day (due to our new wardrobes being installed and whatnot), so anyone wanna-to be my study buddy? : D

And after the exams I'm off to the U.S. of A.! Fast isn't it! Time flies like nobody's business. Friends (yes, all of you reading this!) let's meet up before September 4th!

sabrina.

p.s. BAYBEATSBAYBEATSBAYBEATS!

p.s.s i realize that i rarely blog about unhappy stuffs (the youknowwhat unhappy stuffs) these days, even if they're always on my mind.

The score says it all, what an awesome match!

The first half was pretty boring at first, with a lot of defending from Singapore and a little attacking from Liverpool (they were just relaxing; jogging even). Halfway through the first half, we got so bored that we even had time to do the Kallang wave rather loudly and successfully a few rounds around the stadium. Just before the first half ended, (with one minute extra time), I left for a toilet break and Liverpool decided to score the first goal (@#$%!). But at least I didn't have to queue up for a cubicle!

Some hilarious moments:

- During half-time, there was an announcement for some parent to go 'collect' their children from Gate 1.

- The emcees tried promoting the S-league, telling the crowd to go watch Geyland United and Gombak United?! And that the next International friendly is Singapore vs. the Republic of China (hurry go grab your tickets!).

The second half was 10 times more exciting, Benitez finally made subtitutions; Torres came on (we didn't get to see him during the team warm-ups) and the crowd went mad whenever he got the ball; Alonso came on (together with Reina) after much cheering from the crowd, and Dirk Kuyt (absolutely formidable) was on the pitch as well.

Liverpool picked up their pace, and Singapore was just defending like MAD. hahaha. But it was all good to watch, 4 more awesome goals from our favourite away team, and there goes the final whistle. The atmosphere at the stadium was awesome; all the cheering and singing and jeering (especially at any mention of a Man U fan), and I really hope Alonso and Mascherano stays at Liverpool!

Overall, a great early birthday present from my brother. Thank you! <3

sabrina.

p.s. pictures on facebook!

The Kop is in Singapore! And in a flash it's the 26th of July, can't wait to see my favourite Reds team play Singapore! Hopefully Benitez allows Torres more time on the field, like half an hour at least! Pity he didn't allow Gerrard to fly over for the match! :(

On another note, Combat Skirmish is so fun!! (cause my team were the overall winners HAHA) But it really is fun; it's like paintball, but with laser guns and sensors instead. And of course it's played during the night unlike paintball which is played during the day; and the only injury you will get is scratches from tree branches that you can't really see in the dark, while for paintball, you can easily get many bruises from the paint balls. haha yeah, just a brief explanation.

The game was held at dempsey, and I guess we could've ate at one of the restaurants after our game but we were all on low budgets and plus we all smelled bad. So we hopped on the bus and initial plans were to have supper at Newton Circus but we ended up at McDonald's instead hah!

Anyway, that was a good day. And I finally (almost fully) understand OPERA! 

thankful,
sabrina.

Hello!

School work has pretty much been settled for now; I actually let myself sleep early these days - felt so awesome. We should all learn how to worry less; though it is difficult in this economic-based society. After all, who wants to spend their whole life worrying? only to miss out on the wonderful things in life.

The house is in a mess, what with the renovations going on these couple of days. I literally had to take my nap at my study table today because the air-cons were being fixed up in all the bedrooms, and the sofas were stacked with.. things. It all kinda feels claustrophobic, living with boxes everywhere.

On the bright side (there always is one), we've found bags of books and clothes to give away to the Salvation Army. My sister and I were packing our story books a couple of days back and we went through many old story books that we used to read when we were younger. I felt so happy just reading those books again, it reminded us so much of our wonderful childhood. I guess we really are blessed.

What drives you to work hard? The technician who fixed our air-cons today worked from 9.30am this morning, and he's still working right now - 7.48pm. He could have gone home earlier, together with his 2 assistants, but he chose to stay to finish up the work. And it totally isn't an easy task fixing 4 air-cons.

I kinda can't wait for the cupboards to be fixed up, and for the new lights to be installed. All this sounds like a lot of money spent, but I think my mum should get what she wants while she's still able to. After all, life is short; who wants to spend all their time worrying about money?

Been watching Oprah again lately, watched another episode on Spirituality. I don't know how to explain it, but I'm so digging the idea, but of course only practice makes permanent.

Just a couple of quotes to end off:

Life itself is empty and meaningless. Truly. It's you who give meaning to something. The world you see before you is entirely defined by your interpretation of it. Otherwise, life just is. Nothing is wrong in your world unless you tell yourself it is wrong.  -Jason Mraz

There is only Love. Everything else is our resistance to it. -Terces Englehart

sabrina.